It is hard to start college. I waited all summer for it, so excited to experience change, challenges, and growth. College is exactly what I expected, but not exactly what I hoped for! I don't want to go into personal details, but that is why this week's scripture has meant so much to me!
As everyone does, I have a few problems in my life that I am constantly struggling to fight through; mostly revolving around my social skills. When it comes to making friends, I would say I am slightly unpracticed. Sure, I am friendly, but I usually cannot think of anything to say beyond "What's your name/major/hometown...?" For a majority of people, this can be intimidating or annoying, and most people walk away from me. I understand, and at times I am not at all sure I want to be friends with everyone I speak too, which is nothing against those people. The Lord has blessed me with certain talents and abilities, things that I like to share with others. However, He has also challenged me with this particular issue as He knows it will help me grow as I continue to work hard at it.
The scripture that has made a profound impression in my mind and heart comes from Doctrine and Covenants 6:16 . God is the only one who knows me! He knows every last detail of my everything and is the only one who can truly help me! God knows what I desire to say, and that I even have a desire to speak with people. I tell Him these things because I know He will help me.
Some days are easier than others; sometimes I surprise myself by being unnaturally outgoing and its great, other days I am the silent recluse awkwardly sitting/standing with a group of social butterflies. I have a lot to learn about myslef, and because my Heavenly parents know me so completely I have to learn to give my trust and faith into them to make me the person I aspire to be!
I am good at hiding what I am thinking and how I am feeling. It's not something I conciously decide to hide, it naturally happens, and I have to remember to show emotion! :) I may hide my heart from the world, but God knows what is there and what I want! He loves me so much, He is always willing to give me chance after chance to speak with people. This is both healthy and despairing. I am thankful for the opportunity to grow and stretch myself to try new things, and thankful that God knows what will help me and my capabilities.
If you will turn to the Lord, and let Him into your heart, He will be there to help you grow and love others!!
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